我想要一所山上的房子,像爸爸工作的地方那样的花园房。星期日,爸爸的休息日,我们会去那里。我过去常去。现在不去了。你长大了,就不喜欢和我们一起出去吗?爸爸说。你傲起来了。蕾妮说。我没告诉他们我很羞愧——我们一帮人全都盯着那里的窗户,像饥饿的人。我厌倦了盯着我不能拥有的东西。如果我们赢了彩票……妈妈才开口,我就不要听了。
那些住在山上、睡得靠星星如此近的人,他们忘记了我们这些住在地面上的人。他们根本不朝下看,除非为了体会住在山上的心满意足。上星期的垃圾,对老鼠的恐惧,这些与他们无关。夜晚来临,没什么惊扰他们的梦,除了风。
有一天我要拥有自己的房子,可我不会忘记我是谁我从哪里来。路过的流浪者会问,我可以进来吗?我会把他们领上阁楼,请他们住下来,因为我知道没有房子的滋味。
有些日子里,晚饭后,我和朋友们坐在火旁。楼上的地板吱呀吱呀响。阁楼上有咕咕哝哝的声音。
是老鼠吗?他们会问。
是流浪者。我会回答说。我会很开心。
I want a house on a hill like the ones with the gardens where Papa works. We go on Sundays, Papa\'s day off. I used to go. I don\'t anymore. You don\'t like to go out with us, Papa says. Getting too old? Getting too stuck-up, says Nenny. I don\'t tell them I am ashamed——all of us staring out the window like the hungry. I am tired of looking at what we can\'t have. When we win the lottery……Mama begins, and then I stop listening.
People who live on hills sleep so close to the stars they forget those of us who live too much on earth. They don\'t look down at all except to be content to live on hills. They have nothing to do with last week\'s garbage or fear of rats. Night comes. Nothing wakes them but the wind.
One day I\'ll own my own house, but I won\'t forget who I am or where I came from. Passing bums will ask, Can I come in? I\'ll offer them the attic, ask them to stay, because I know how it is to be without a house.
Some days after dinner, guests and I will sit in front of a fire. Floorboards will squeak upstairs. The attic grumble.
Rats? They\'ll ask.
Bums, I\'ll say, and I\'ll be happy.